Recently been watching a taiwan show, It's my Destiny. In this show, it's about a gal whom is so common and not popular has found her destiny after an accident one night stand in a cruise with a rich guy whom is actually waiting for her gal whom is a ballet dancer. This gal become pregnant and married to this guy but in this guy heart his most love is his ballet dancer gf. He is being force to marry the gal and this gal knows that he is waiting for his love to be back. She is a very understanding gal but to save the island she is born, she promise to marry the guy and after giving birth to the child, she will leave him. As time passes, while waiting for his gf to be back from the tour performance, he spend a great time with his wife(being force to marry) and slowly falling in love with her without realising. The guy's gf was back due to she was been sack for leaving without permission the day before the grand performance. She realise that her bf cares alot about the baby and the gal(his wife). Afraid of losing him, she did a terrible act by meeting the gal and giving her a false agreement that the guy wanted her to sign for an abortion agreement. Without finding out the truth, she misunderstood the guy and run away. Without knowing what really happens, the guy giving chase and an accident happen. Until the day she had an accident and lost the child, then the guy knows he really loves her and the unborn baby. He was force to sign an operation agreement in order to save the gal but she has misunderstood him that he doesn't want the baby at all. After the incident, she left to Shanghai for a new start of her life to forget him. After 2 years, they met again and only then realise alot of misunderstanding between the both of them have happen. After few incidents, then they are finally together. It's a sad, funny and nice show with a perfect ending. Sad when she miss out the opportunity to be with the guy she loves, only after she is gone then the guy realise that how important is she in his heart. Funny when her mom n 2 elder sisters come to screen. Perfect ending when she finally knows how much both of them loves each other and how important both of them are to each other after so many happenings in their life. After wasting 2 years and missing out the opportunity of telling each other how important and how deeply they loves each other, they are finally together.

When will my destiny appear? I also didn't know and wouldn't wanted to think so much. In my love life, I have few relations but all doesn't work out. Reasons being no one appreciated me only after we broke off. Guys are all the same isn't it.

My 1st relation is when I was in secondary school. His name is Haisong, Singaporean, 1 year older than me. We broke off due to his mum is against it because we are still school. I initiated the break and he left home just to prove that he wanted to be with me. I didn't want to affect his studies and his relation with his mum and so I advice him to go home and lie to him I have no more feelings for him.

2nd relation is when I 1st step out to work at New Otani Singapore. His name is Stephen, Singaporean, also 1 year older than me. This relation is short because I found out that he is one of my friend BF.

3rd relation is at New Otani Singapore. He is a Japanese Restaurant Sous Chef. His name is Alex, Malaysian and he is older than me 10 years. He is a nice guy and treated me very well. He will send me home every night after work without fail. We ever think of marriage but after all it's doesn't work out. Maybe it's because I'm still young and playful and I rejected him.

4th relation is also at New Otani Singapore. He is a barman at Trader Vic's. A very sweet guy name Justin, Malaysian, older than me 1 year. Perhaps he is the 1st guy that my tears drop when we break. He is still thinking of his ex-gf and so we decided to end the relation.

5th relation is also at New Otani Singapore and this is the longest relation that last almost 5 years. He is a banquet captain, name Eddie, Malaysian, older than me 5 years. This relation is a sweet and at the same time it's tough. He loves to drink and he brings me to where ever he goes. I give up after I have enough of all the quarrel after our 4th year relations. He ask me for another chances to start the relation all over again but I can't. Why??? Just because my heart is dead and tired.

6th relation is from SPF. His name is Darrence, Singaporean, older than me 6 years. This is the saddest relationship that I have gone through. It took me almost 2 years to forget, forgive and let go of this guy. He break my heart just because of a China bitch. Imagine I lost 10kg after we break off and I cried each and every night whenever I think of him. He has given me the most happiest memories and also the deepest impact in my heart.

7th relation is also from SPF. His name is John, Singaporean, older than me 5 years. After all the relation I have gone through, I didn't want to put in so much effort anymore. This relation I broke off because he doesn't knows what he wanted. He is so indecisive. I have given him alot of chances to think and decide what he really wants. He even patch up with his ex-gf without me knowing until I found out from my god-brother. After break off, same thing happen. He ask me for a second chance and I told him. No because I have a BF and he is very good to me so I didn't want to go back to the indecisive guy. He didn't believe me and thinks I'm lying to him which it's true that I'm lying just wanted him to let go.

After all these, I have decided to keep my door close and to concentrate on my career to a higher level. Although I am now an Assistant Banquet Operation Manager, I want to go higher.

I have someone in my heart, he is younger than me 3 years and I am holding on to the feeling to prevent it from going deeper as I know in my heart, we might not be possible because we are both fighting for our career. I did told him how I feel and at the same time I also told him, I'm holding down the feelings for him. He did told me that he is surprise how I feel for him and at the same time he is also building up his career.

I have decided to leave Singapore for a job in Macau. Maybe this will be a better option for me. Of course I miss all my dearest friends here including my family. After all true love and my destiny is something that I think in my life will not happen or will not even really appear. So my main concentration is still my career. It's tired to get hurt and to stand up again after each and every relation. So when will My destiny to appearing. Let's wait and see ba............ but at the main time is still CAREER 1st till it's appear.